Sit back and enjoy!

"Sit back and enjoy." Those are the words that I heard as I prayed the other night. Its been a long road for Alyson and me. With her having been diagnosed with cancer, we really had not been able to enjoy the whole experience of pregnancy. Now that she appears to be in the clear, we have had a chance to really enjoy the preparation of having a baby. It has been fun setting up Brooks' room, going through his clothes, figuring out which outfit he will come home in, and just thinking about what it will be like to hold him in our arms. The other day as I prepared to iron my clothes for our basketball game, I sat down in the glider in the nursery to wait for the iron to heat up. As I sat there, I began to rock back and forth, the next thing I new I had drifted off to sleep. I can remember the calmness that I felt as I rocked in the chair, when I woke up I was so excited about Brooks coming home and what a great feeling it will be to look into his eyes. I can only imagine what it will be like to see him for the first time. I am not sure if I will cry, if I will be numb, or if I will be jumping around as if I had just won a national championship or what. All I know is that for the first time in a while I can sit back and enjoy the anticipation of becoming a father/parent. The only thing that I am nervous about now, is the fact that we don't start lamas(?) classes until March, which is pretty late since the baby is due in March. I hope that we at least get through a couple of classes before Alyson goes into labor. We will keep our fingers crossed. But for now I am going to sit back and enjoy what's left of this pregnancy.